A selection of quality (and not-so- quality) works from quality (and not-so-quality) people. You decide which is which. An experiment of sorts in my mind and others, this is what you the faithful readers and writers make it. Have fun with it! Write poetry without judgment.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Broken Dreams
For the fourth summer in a row
After college graduation
Mom, I just wanted to say that I'm sorry
You escaped the war
Moved to a foreign land
All because you dreamed of a better life for us
And what do I do?
I went to college and had dreams of social justice
How dare I dream of making this world better,
When I can't even make your life better?
Why couldn't I have just gotten a business degree?
Sorry I couldn't buy you that new house in the suburb
Sorry I couldn't buy you that fancy car
Sorry I couldn't get you all the things you deserved
Sorry I couldn't live out the dreams that you had for me
The saddest thing is that
I can't even express my sorrows
In a language that you could understand
You've never faulted me for who I've become
And I just wanted you to know that I am who I am
Because of your good teachings
Luckily you have two other sons who will live out your dreams
And although, I don't follow your Buddhist ways
I really hope that reincarnation does exist
So that I could be your son again in the next lifetime
And every lifetime after that
Maybe then,
I'd be able to do more for you
Than I am able to do in this lifetime
Maybe I could make your dreams come true
Maybe I'll be able to give you all the good things that you never asked for
One More Minute
May I stay here a bit longer?
To try to get to know you a little better
Cuz I have so many questions I'd like to ask
Like
How are you doing?
Where have you been all this time?
Did I live up to your expectations?
Sorry
Didn't mean to get so serious right away
I guess we can start with the fundamentals
Cuz I don't even know that
What's your favorite food?
Your favorite color?
Please answer me
Say something
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you're proud of me
Say anything
You can even tell me that I'm a disappointment
I just want to hear that voice
That calm and soothing voice
That used to put me to sleep every night
Alright
Don't speak
But would you at least listen to what I have to say?
Cuz a lot has happened in the twenty-six years that you've been gone
For instance
We've all grown up now
Not struggling so much now
And all three of us are doing our best to take care of mom
But she is sick often
She seems happy though
I think it's because of the grandkids
Oh, by the way
Did you know that you're a grandfather now?
Yeah, both my brothers have kids
They're great fathers
They would do anything for those kids
I think that's because they know how it feels to not have a father
Oh no
It's not your fault
None of us blame you for what happened
All I'm saying
Is that they know how it feels to have that emptiness in their heart
And I don't think they would want to wish that upon any child
Um, also...
What?
It's time to go?
No
Please no
Please don't let me wake up yet dad
You died to young dad
I was only a baby
Never had a chance to get to know you
And the only time I get to see you
Are in these dreams
Standing there, silently
I have so much to tell you
Please
Please let me dream for just a minute longer
To make up for the millions of minutes that I've thought about you
Just a minute longer
To make up for the millions of minutes that I've been without you
Please
Let me dream for just a minute longer
To make up for the 13,756,320 minutes that I've missed you
PLEASE
Monday, August 23, 2010
ballad of the weird-ass dream
I keep dreaming
Small ones.
Beautiful ones.
Ugly ones.
Babies with big heads.
Big bones
Small delicate features
That I almost drop on their heads
What does it all mean?
Who Am I?
That's right.
That dream you had the other night?
That was me.
Telling you to speak in full sentences.
Full, grammatically correct sentences.
In your non-native language.
I am your English dream.
If you dream in English, it's my fault.
I tell you to squelch your Korean
And leave it at the door.
I tell you to
Be a little adult
For 55 minutes a day.
I dream about it too.
So it's not just you.
I'm insanely curious about your world
But the hogwon doesn't care.
They care that you can conjugate the verb "to go" in your sleep.
You are so brave
And it's me that is the coward.
Louder
Scream it
Until you have a headache
And are vomiting in fear
Open class is in four days
And you are so strong
Keep going
Show your work ethic
And your child-like spirit at once
I Dare you.
Dream on.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Summer of Sinuses
Is mocking me again
Taunting my tireless eyelids
3am
Still awake
Just like last night
And the night before
Check my phone
Nope
She still hasn’t texted me
Maybe
I can once again make my NFL season predictions
Or
Daydream about how our date could have turned out a bit better
Toss
Turn
Get angry that I can’t fall asleep
Get angry about the fact that
I am angry that I can’t fall asleep
Look forward to the fact that the circles under my eyes
Will be one shade darker tomorrow morning
Well
After some thought
I think the Ravens will represent the AFC in the Super Bowl
Same as last night
And the night before
How can one dream
When they cannot get any sleep?
Friday, August 6, 2010
To William Carlos Williams
an amazing dream
filled with a thousand splendid fantasies.
But
all I can remember
is eating a really delicious pickle.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Our Sweet Fossil Fuel Dreams
The trip to the corner store
Key ignition to shorten shuffle step
Could you feel the drill?
Pulsing through the surface
Pulverizing rock and dirt into specks of dust
The bus ride home
Did it taste like salt?
Did it cover you in black?
A dark blanket wrapped around
A casket carved out of delusions
The bottled water sitting on your desk
Is it reminiscent of a quiet failure
Or the roaring explosion that took 11 lives?
One that quickly dwarfed Alaska
Swallowed the world in its horror
How about that plane ride to New Orleans?
Could your selfish eyes see the 1,866 dead birds?
Did you pay the extra fare?
Not for baggage
But for 463 slaughtered sea turtles?
59 dead sea mammals?
Drill baby
Drill
That is our mess that is making the sea a little less pretty
So much more than an eyesore
Our cute little secret hidden in our closets
Our cognitive dissonance that was rude enough
To awaken us from our sweet dreams
That candle
That lighter
That car
Those are OUR failures
It is our criminal fingerprint
Embedded in the oil
Not Obama's
Not BP's
Ours
And we will not be able to wipe it away any time soon