This morning I awoke early in my bed
My ever-vigilant alarm was set to erupt
Forty-five minutes ticking down
The clouds were having an early morning party
Toasting to the humidity, no doubt
The first real time they had done so this summer
The rain poured down and all I could do was smile
Wide awake, grateful for the m
Serenity only maintained briefly
Perhaps five minutes
At most ten
And soon I started to drift away
The reliable alarm on my phone danced in my head
I could no longer relax while I counted the minutes
Dreading the siren, awaiting what was to c
Last week I had the distinct honor of watching my niece
She warms my heart like the sun only dreams it could
I stretch smiles for hours after being with her
She makes me want to love like I only have one day to live
I dwelled in those m
I tunneled away fr
Of adventures and heartbreaks to c
We ran through sprinklers while screaming
We battled with her Transformers toys
We watched Cars for the fifteenth time, reciting all the lines
She fell asleep twenty minutes before her parents came h
I kissed her forehead goodnight while I tucked her in
The rest of the week?
Instead of taking those lessons my niece had taught me
I worried about graduate school
I pondered over and over about the research I was working on
I did not taste food that week, so anxious for Fall Semester
I drove mindlessly as I thought of having to write this poem
My surroundings failed to register while I biked and walked
I was not conscious of the conversations I held
So lost inside my head and what I thought would happen t
Could happen
Never will happen
We spend hours upon hours daydreaming of the future
We adore it more than our partners
Dedicate more time to it than our families and our friends
More in love with future pr
I wrote a letter to the Future
All it said was:
Fuck You,
Sincerely,
Alex
P.S. I am in the process of getting a restraining order
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